Life can really fuck you up sometimes. Not every plan you make will turn out and- yeah that shit sucks. But the mark of humanity is adaptability, so pulling yourself up by the bootstraps it kinda the only way to go.
Life for me hasn't been all bad. I'm 85% sure that I'm in love, which is pretty neat. Probably more then 85% but I digress. I've been mostly on my grind, though less effective then I really want to be. Somehow I've been set adrift. I have a very general idea of who I want to be but damn that shit gets foggy if you're not careful.
Right now all I want to do is drive around with the windows down blaring indie music. Pick up my friends and go to little seaside cafes. The ultimate problem with this plan is plain to see; said friends have lives of their own.
I guess it kinda feels like everyone knows what their doing and I'm just kinda stuck here. All parts of me want to follow my dreams and just say fuck it. However, there is a sense of reality about me still since I surround myself with mainly logical thinkers. I just want to be happy.
Wait- that's not to say I'm not happy right now. This has been one of the best periods of my life. I'm making enough money to support my lifestyle and also give to my friends. I have such a loving boyfriend (He really makes my eyes glow.) I'm also the most comfortable with my looks and my body that I've ever been. I just don't feel like I have a future planned out right now.
Said boyfriend told me that I need to focus on the here and now, maybe he's right?
That's all I have for this, I realized that I hadn't updated anyone in a smidgen to what's going on behind the curtain.
.// Playlist \\.
Fight Sleep - Dagny
Washed Up Together - Knox Hamilton
Drive - Oh Wonder
Talk to Much - COIN
Stupid for You - Waterparks
-Vand.
